Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I have been a bit overwhelmed at this new job called motherhood these past six months. It is a 24 hour a day job that you get paid $0 for. I love it, but it is hard. I make sure to let Robbie know this every chance I get. He can't even get "How was your day?" out of his mouth before I tell him how little Hawkins slept and how tired I am. I never seem to tell him the good stuff that happened before I tell him the bad stuff. This is getting old for both of us. I want to be happy and positive towards Robbie so he wants to come home at night! ha! Who wants to run home to a nagging wife?
Well, here we are approaching the sixth month, and I am finally feeling like I can do this. I have almost been scared to leave the house all this time because "it is too hard with a baby". That is partially true, but not really a valid excuse anymore. I have never taken Hawkins to the nursery at the YMCA b/c I am scared of germs. Not anymore! Next week I am taking him and I am finally going to lose the baby weight - hold me to it! I am tired of wearing sweatpants!
This has been a rambling post, but a Mother's brain is always rambling. This season of life is not an easy one with a young child, but there are alot of joyous moments to balance out the hard ones. I have been blessed with a healthy happy baby and I am learning to appreciate that. I am loving this age and look forward to seeing his sweet smile every morning. Hawkins, you are my whole world and bring such joy to my life!
Practicing in my playpen
Getting the hang of it...
Monday, January 24, 2011
My weekend away was fabulous and included the following: alone time in the car on the looooong trip, visiting some great friends, attending a baby shower for Libby, 2 great dinners, A LOT of pumping, missing my sweet baby and not shopping - and did I mention pumping? I think I scared poor innocent Virginia with all of my pumping. She might never have children or breastfeed after witnessing it so many times.
My only shopping was at Babies R Us. I just had to bring Hawkins back a few surprises. You know my life has changed dramatically when that is the ONLY shopping I did the entire trip to Atlanta. I didn't even go to the mall - that's major!
I have to admit I was expecting a huge reaction from Hawkins when I walked through the door Sunday afternoon - a full 50 hours since I left him on Friday. I wanted a huge smile, some giggles, and a hug...but he just sort of looked at me funny and then looked back at Robbie like "Dad, why is Mom back?" He and Robbie totally bonded during their man weekend and he is goo goo over his Dad now. He just kept smiling at him and not looking at me! Things are back to normal now that I am the one feeding him :)
It was very nice to have some time away from Mommyhood, but I am glad to be home with my baby!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Seriously, Robbie is hands down the best Daddy in the world, so I do not have to worry one bit. He will even bathe him, which is better than my Dad ever did. I have just turned into this OCD "follow my instructions to a T or I will kill you" type of Mother. This weekend is just what I need...friends, wine, no schedules, free time to myself to think and reflect.
Thank you Robbie for letting me get away!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Just in the last 2 or 3 weeks since Christmas he has changed SO much and is growing up right before my eyes. I will get into exactly what he is doing in his 6 month post (next week? what?), but he is really a different baby than he was at Christmas. He has lots of new tricks that he can't wait to show everyone!!
This is bitter sweet for me because I LOVE every new thing he does and I can't get enough of his cuteness in this new stage...but I do love my little baby and want him to stay cuddly and small! Everyone that says it gets better and better is truly right. Each day brings new laughs and makes us fall in love with Hawkins even more. He is such a good baby and rarely cries for no reason. If he cries he is either hungry or tired. I am sure all my other children will be terrors after I have been spoiled with such a happy baby :)
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
Lady and Beau loved it too.
Hawkins went to church with us on Christmas Eve for the children's service and then we went to the Jones annual Christmas Eve party. It as a late night for Hawkins, but he did great! Mommy and Daddy were so proud to show him off.
Mommy, Hawkins and Aunt Nina